How to survive....

I'm sure I have nobody looking at my blog anymore, but to those faithful lookers I'm here. Sorry no, pictures right now, but I will do my best to get some up on here soon. Life has been short of crazy, actually I'd go as far as, insane. Just when I get all settled in my new house I think life is just going to be steady, calm, settled. OH NO! News flash, that's now how life works. Lance is still trying to figure out what he wants to do when he grows up. Thirst Express (his business) is going fine. Some bumps along the way, BIG bumps that has caused him to try to figure out if it's something he wants to continue doing. He is actually in AZ right now testing the market there to see if it is an area he could build like the one he did here. He has been gone for 4 days and I am MISERABLE! If you all forget, I have 3 kids that are the best three kids anyone could ask for, but they are 4, almost 3 and 18 months and I also have been very involved in a business called Doterra. Not to mention a not so easy calling in church, a house to clean that is too big, laundry to keep up on and I could keep listing things but the main thing is is I am having this struggle within because I absolutely love doing Doterra and am having so much fun, but I also have three children that require ALL of my attention ALL the time. No breaks. It is this power struggle within that I should be 100% a mom and at the same time really want to spend the time doing Doterrra. With Lance being gone I am exhausted. In the 4 days I've had major melt downs at least 6 times. You do the math, that's one and a half melt downs per day. No good. I try to be supportive of Lance's endeavor in AZ, but am so overwhelmed here that every time he calls I bawl. I know, great wife, right? We'll see how these next few days go. If there is any advice out there of people who actually still look at my blog let me know.